Hello, witness

I'm trying to see the lesson in everything. The positive lesson.

I'm a bit of a wallower, yes I am. Ever since I was pretty young, I can remember thinking to myself that it's better to think things won't work out because if they don't, then I won't be disappointed and if they do happen to work out, well hey there - what a lovely surprise, like a bonus with extra whipped cream. What a charming child I must have been.

I've made an effort to change, since I've realized that everything is a choice, and how I can choose to feel positive or negative, regardless of what I run into on a given day. How I cannot change the chaos around me , but I can choose to limit its affect on me. How my perception is totally filtered by this decision to see it one way or the other. How even if I'm having a not so good day, I am still a content person, with a wonderful life - a roof over my head, more than enough food in my fridge, family and friends who love and support me, I'm making a living doing what I love, I get to play taiko on week-ends... La vie est belle, n'est ce pas?

So today, even though I feel like crap, I am going to make a true effort to have a good day. Just so you know - if you've read this, you're my witness.